Life is just like fruit.

Do you know who you are Did you decide to give up When did you experience what giving up is Do you know what it would be like to be free What is freedom to you Why is freedom important Which freedom is most important When you define freedom how does it feel Can you lift your eyes to freedom freely Why do you carry guilt What moment was it when you realized What does hope mean to you Did you die by twenty-five Did you see hope fade from your face in photographs How is it that you decided that life wasn’t full Did the struggles of finances burden you Do you know what happy looks like What does happy feel like Do you recognize the person that you see in the mirror Do you want to change Do you remain the same What is pleasure without pain What is pain without shame Why does shame exist Are you without guilt Are you without blame Who are without experience What is experience without you What is fake happy What is safety to you What...

When walking through fire, become the flame. The spark within is fed by truth, faith and love. Each moment remaining in the present allows the opportunity to achieve the highest version of self. Believing that greatness lives inside. If not life will chew you up then spit you out. Keeping hope alive is undoubtedly one of the hardest parts of this experience. It's so easy to give in and let life run you, instead of you living it. Keeping the mind clear, safe and driven by a divine purpose will be the only way to protect the soul. I write this but please understand life has taught me. I am still here because I believe I have a testimony. You must experience the test to have a testimony. Moving forward in this life is possible when you feel pulled by patient potential. In this experience we have have to move with purpose. Taking steps that involve risk and becoming majestically vulnerable allow the stars to align. When you know better you do better. In order to know better you have t...

Another one bites the dust. Child's play. Trust?  What's that? Constantly falling short.  Wildin. Steady.  Awkward silence.  Fighting for peace. Within.  It's so cold on these many nights.  Lonely but not alone.  In this house I don't feel like I'm home. Falling short again.  On my own. Witty words. I've suffered in silence. I stopped talking. I stopped talking to everyone. Why talk when no one listens. I isolated myself. Lost. I suffered in pain. Every pain, trauma, experience and bad choice became magnified.  Hyper focused. The stakes were high.  Higher than my standards.  Higher than peoples noses. Higher  Than I've ever been.  Better than my taste in men. I burned the stakes. I burnt at the stake.  A fall from grace. An unfinished race. Set an unreachable pace. Wept for a thousand miles. Went through thousands of trials. Slept in denial. Slept with denial. My enemy absorbed my energy. I turned to dust. Frienemy  The house I built inside of myself was blo...

The pressure never lets up It just changes Changes me Change you can see Parenting is the hardest job on the planet Self love comes in as a tie Soul tie Running outta time Can't change the past It all comes rushing back Flash back Love them Coulda done better Tryin not to be bitter Trying to be better To be better to me Then I can be better to them For them You can't give what you don't have That's not an excuse We have to grow You have to seek truth It's not given to you Sometimes it finds you In a lesson Petal to the metal Car slams into the brick wall You're not oblivious You just weren't curious It's important to know where you lack In order to change In order to build Then hopefully break the cycle Breaking the cycle is the hardest part of it all Let's be real Authenticity Broken black families. Broken black homes. If I would have known better I would have done better By the time I woke up You don't see me You ain't feeling me It was too...

Pull the trigger Blacked out Not calling you Surrendering All these pills out Can't pass out Can't cash out Fuck calling you Numbed up Drugged up What am I hanging on too? Sober, staying true I wonder if that will bring me hope too Just wanna let go Got the hammer out Spin the wheel Still here I dont feel me Close my eyes Lose control Mix the G up Hustle bitch gotta Survive Do I cock it back? Where's the syrup at Pimpin never fuckin slipping Stay high Lifted Let it fly Stars fill my eyes Dropped out College stuck up Atmosphere Who do you see When you look at me I dont wanna be a Killer Black Widow Are you dying No brain activity Baddest bitch Always will be Side effects of a hoe No, not me You though Shut your mouth Vengeance Shame Anger See right through you Been running so long I'm so damn tired Body drop All I had Gave all I had to all I've had I have no more to give Never alone Always lonely Don't be like me Jaded Drowning Demons Bent on Disconnected Discon...

Send fire into your heart Spark your soul Can you look at yourself When you take off the mask Do you care Do you feel alone Are you searching for something Something that remains unknown We all have our transgressions We all have secrets We all have that in common Behaving one way in front of certain people Then, another way in front of others No, I'm real No one has to ask me Who are you now It has cost me friends and family It's taught me I never gave one single fuck When sometimes I should have When sometimes I shouldn't have and still did I've always been me I stand on who I am Realer, Trill, Savage as fuck, Big bitch, Teddy Bear, Rose with thorns It's cost me I'm not trippin It's worth it Teaching my boys to be fully themselves without compromise I ain't raised no punks Strong, Beasts, Genuine Geniuses It's the greatest gift They know that I accept them completely Soldiers Shit pops off They will not crumble or fold Parents always say they got t...

Days toll on Nights sullen Never on my own Alone all of the time Should have changed Importance placed the blame on my name Faces that surround me Require the most from me I see them surround me I cant hear them The storm is getting too loud I feel nothing Disappointments fueled by animosity Such a sunny summer day or I think it used to be My storm is in the way Stop incoming tragedy I look up into the faces of my children I should have been easier on you Shoulda been easier on me Middle finger to my 40th birthday Storm rages Penning pages Time passed so quickly Diamonds fall from mouths speaking to me Nevermind, I'm sorry those are only atrocities It was change I've wanted change so badly That I fell apart On the ground picking up my shattered disaster Adjusted responses Tweaked my inner Demons Turned um into Monsters Bent them Forcing them around pain It's suffocating in here Storming inside me Beating me Annihilating my sensitivity Beatiful misery Beating the fuck o...