Life is just like fruit.

Another one bites the dust. Child's play. Trust?  What's that? Constantly falling short.  Wildin. Steady.  Awkward silence.  Fighting for peace. Within.  It's so cold on these many nights.  Lonely but not alone.  In this house I don't feel like I'm home. Falling short again.  On my own. Witty words. I've suffered in silence. I stopped talking. I stopped talking to everyone. Why talk when no one listens. I isolated myself. Lost. I suffered in pain. Every pain, trauma, experience and bad choice became magnified.  Hyper focused. The stakes were high.  Higher than my standards.  Higher than peoples noses. Higher  Than I've ever been.  Better than my taste in men. I burned the stakes. I burnt at the stake.  A fall from grace. An unfinished race. Set an unreachable pace. Wept for a thousand miles. Went through thousands of trials. Slept in denial. Slept with denial. My enemy absorbed my energy. I turned to dust. Frienemy  The house I built inside of myself was blo...

The pressure never lets up It just changes Changes me Change you can see Parenting is the hardest job on the planet Self love comes in as a tie Soul tie Running outta time Can't change the past It all comes rushing back Flash back Love them Coulda done better Tryin not to be bitter Trying to be better To be better to me Then I can be better to them For them You can't give what you don't have That's not an excuse We have to grow You have to seek truth It's not given to you Sometimes it finds you In a lesson Petal to the metal Car slams into the brick wall You're not oblivious You just weren't curious It's important to know where you lack In order to change In order to build Then hopefully break the cycle Breaking the cycle is the hardest part of it all Let's be real Authenticity Broken black families. Broken black homes. If I would have known better I would have done better By the time I woke up You don't see me You ain't feeling me It was too...