Life is just like fruit.

How do you see the path of which is meant for you? How do you choose to keep your purpose within the proper perspective? How do you know what a proper perspective is? Are these things shaped by your life experiences or what you have been taught by family or are they innate? When do you set yourself upon this path? Life gives us millions of questions that we are charged with discovering. Many we never answer but spend a lifetime looking for. Some answers come in the form of more questions. During all these moments of discovery those of us who are truly pulled towards something greater than we are making a conscious decision. We choose to explore deep introspective internal dialogue. Without careful attention, these conversations with self can be tainted by our visions of pain, fear, sadness or lack of love. These visions are created by an unchecked mind. Our minds can help us do mundane tasks but can, and often do, interfere with our most important moments of self-discovery. However, ...

Choices. I've made many. Regretted most. Falling too deep and allowing too much. Allowing, painful experiences to over rule my opportunity to be vulnerable. Then because of that, I block myself off due to feeling like I am bracing for an disastrous impact. I liken it to the experience of when a plane suddenly begins spiraling and plummeting towards the ever closer ground. Descending, falling from the sky. A desperate warning forgotten within chaos. Fully encompassed with the terror of the inevitable coming to the worst most unimaginable end. Yet and still I put childish things aside when I became a woman. The pain of losing everything you've wanted and worked for is full of despair. Being here is what I came for? No, this isn't what I signed up for, not heartbreaking with a side of gut wrenching failure. However, this is what I've asked for. I guess setting myself up for utter collapse is something I've always been good at. Recovering is something I've nev...

                 You never escape destiny. You cannot out run the path that is yours alone to take. Life has a funny way of meeting you with all the twists and turns that you are supposed to encounter. Regardless if you plan accordingly or not. You try to take a short cut and all it does is smack you harder to drive the lesson home. If you don’t learn the lesson correctly the first go around then you inevitably have to learn it all over again until the proper outcome is achieved. Learning is the ultimate achievement in every aspect of our lives on this planet. The best teacher I've yet to encounter has been pain. This life has given me more than a fair share of those lessons. It’s almost like riding a horse. With no knowledge of the nature of the beast, your ass will end up on the ground. You have to find the motivation to climb back on until you and that horse find your connection. You and life must find a sweet spot of acceptance and g...